I'm not sure all this fond kisses and drinks and pretending you don't know is doing you any good. You don't have to stop loving or wanting him, but you are entitled to a relationship based on honesty - and so is he. I think words are cheap at the moment, especially his. He might be pulling more stunts to get you back into line, he might be getting his ducks in a row for a divorce, or perhaps it's none of those things. If he wants to divorce you, you don't need to have a nice walk and listen to him whine about your faults and his feelings any more - he can just get on and do it. I would avoid being alone with him, forward his mail to his address via the postal service, and concentrate on yourself. I wouldn't entertain a second's conversation about it - even to ask him to hold off until October. He will do what he wants anyway, and you asking him for this kind of favour just entrenches him in power and you as his victim. Let him do whatever he wants.
