Nyla - I'm so sorry you are hurting. You are not alone in your emotions, changing from day to day, moment to moment. If you have seen my thread, you will see I go through the exact same thing.
You need to find your own outlet. For me, it was inviting friends out any day of the week I could (especially in the beginning), exercising, pursing activities I love, and diving into my faith. They were all life-lines. Sometimes I just yelled at God. I believe he listens to me.
Originally Posted by Nyla79
So again I’m asking, why do I have to suffer all this, when he’s the cause? He’s hurt me enough and keeping all this in hurts me more. Shouldn’t I direct all this anger where it should go? I don’t know if I’m angry, sad or frustrated right now.
That is the unfairness of it all. They are the ones blowing everything up, and we are the in the cross-fire. Venting here, to trusted friends, and if you are of faith, to God, are all places I used to get me through 10 months. I have decided it's the time in my journey to tell my H that his girlfriend is not o.k. and my silence about it is not saying it's o.k. I will probably post about my meeting with him after tomorrow. Only you can decide when, or if, that is something you want to do. But you must be prepared for any outcome after you do. I have decided I am.
Originally Posted by Nyla79
It always stirs me up when I see the hurt in my kids.
This is the worst of the whole sitch, IMO. My kids are older (19 and 21) but hurting none-the-less. I am solid around them, but it is exhausting sometimes. Just be present for them with lots of affirmations, hugs, and understanding. That's all we have control over.
