Turbine - my thoughts are these. I hope they help.
This sounds like it is going to continue for a while. Know that, but also try very hard to step back from it. Unless anything changes, it sounds like you have no interest in pursuing the D yourself, and that is okay and understandable. But that does mean that you might not have a lot of control in this situation, and you will be susceptible to her whims and errors. Sounds like she's making some errors now.
So you'll be in this for a good amount of time if you let her drive. You need to find a way to step out of it, since you're not in the driver's seat for timeline.
How can you gain some sense of control in your own life? Not control over THIS - but maybe something else? What will make you feel good about being Turbine? Not a distraction, but something that feeds your soul. I'm not sure that you've hit on it yet, so I'm hoping you keep searching. What will make you feel your own power over your life?
None of us can control everything. But I think you need to focus on what you CAN control.
This is a tiny one: but lately I've taken great pleasure in being sure I eat my dessert before my dinner. It's so incredibly silly but it makes me feel like a little kid and I honestly laugh at how happy it makes me. Ice cream first. Veggies after.
What is one thing you can switch up in your life to just see it all a little bit differently?
