Thank you for all your advice, it is greatly appreciated. And big thank you for the links Cadet, I have started on reading those.
I think I am finding it hard because he still comes home and sleeps beside me. He has occasionally pulled me close and cuddled me which has given me mixed signals too.
For us its started off as something I could have had under control but emotions got the better of me, which is now we are where we are.
I think with the jeans situation I was frustrated at the fact he has never bought new clothes in 14 years and now all of a sudden he has a new wardrobe. Still no excuse on my part.
We are also taking our children to Florida at the end of the month, something which will be difficult but I shall remain upbeat and focus on me and the children.
I just hope that I am not too late in realising my mistakes and I have a shot at turning this all around by working on and fixing myself.
