oh 97Hope - that is hard. I know you will take care of yourself and seek the support that you need and continue to care for your children and your friends, all the way through this. I know you'll be dignified and calm and kind.
But if in the midst of all that, you need to take your tractor out and do some damage to a heap of soil, well, I think that would probably be okay.
I hope your meeting with the L went well. Make sure you are putting your own needs first. Your H will sink or swim on his own and you don't need to take care of him emotionally or financially.
