I don't know where I would be without this forum and all you wonderful, wonderful people in here. The support I get from here is so much better than what I get from my friends and family, so I've stoppend talking to them about my situation and come here whenever I need anything.
Like someone earlier mentioned to me, if you have no experience of MLC you can't possibly understand a stander. Everyone around me tells me to start dating, go and try it out, you're still so young, blaah, blaah, blaah. I have nothing against dating and people who date while standing, but when in my heart I know that at this moment there's no room for new people, I shouldn't date. It would not be right for me and especially to the new person. So I kindly ask them to get off my back about it, I'm not ready. I mean my goodness, his side of the bed is still warm.
Thank you DnJ and Peacetoday for your input on the kids visitation issue <3 <3 <3 I sent the email you edited to my H and in his reply he remarked that isn't visitation schedule a bit official. I haven't replied to that, nor will I. He also wrote that he had talked with D12 and she would be willing to come and try staying at his house. I need to talk with D12 as well. I think her fear of losing her father causes her not to ba able to say what she means to him. And so she tries to please him in any way. Poor child. D14 is still in my hometown with her cousins, she won't be back home until late July. After we moved to Spain she has spent the summers in my hometown with family. And this year she even more reluctant to come home.
I read somewhere that children whose parents had a lowconflict marriage suffer more from a divorde than other children. I wonder if that is so. We had a very lowconflict marriage, so I worry.
When I was 19, I was an Au pair in the States and I read a poem that some had asked Dear Abby about. I remember I immediately fell in love with that poem and I clipped it out and saved it. I still have it between my cookbook, and ran into it yesterday. It is so appropiate right now, I wanted to share it with you.
After A While Author: Veronica A. Shoffstall
After a while you learn the subtle difference Between holding a hand and chaining a soul, And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning And company doesn’t mean security, And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts And presents aren’t promises. And you begin to accept your defeats With your head up and your eyes open With the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child. And you learn to build all your roads on today, Because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans, And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After a while you learn That even sunshine burns if you get too much. So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure, That you really are strong, And you really do have worth. And you learn and learn, With every goodbye you learn.
On BD Me 39 H44 D14 D12 S10 M19 T19 BD 3/19 Separation 3/19 H filed for D 4/19
