97Hope - you're doing so well. Dingle hopper had me laughing right out loud!!!
I'm trying not to push past my pain - given that all my techniques for resolving it or avoiding it are unhealthy. When I made decisions based on getting out of pain, they're never good ones. Instead, I am trying just to sit with it and wait for it to pass. Maybe they are growing pains and time will take them away. I know I'm a better, more thoughtful, more self-reliant person as a result of this separation. Perhaps even in time I will learn to be grateful for it, because it's helped me tackle and resolve a lot of stuff I was using another person and a relationship to medicate. I don't know yet.
