Making the best of the mess.

[97Hope]

Feeling better about the mobile phone....evil grin.

I don't even like having a mobile. I have a land-line and I'm happy to use it. When I'm driving or out in town I don't answer anyway so this simplifies my life a lot. If I have an emergency when I travel, etc. I'll have to go old school and ask someone to call 911 for me like we did in olden times.

The person that texts me the most is H so if he wants me off of his plan, he can go for it. lol He will no longer be able to ask me about the rainfall or check to see where I am when I'm not here.

I will be less available to him, and it will be his own doing. I know this guy. He doesn't realize how much that will irk him. This might be a blessing in disguise - for me.

I had to take a pause from thinking about it like another nail in the coffin. The horse is well and truly dead. Doesn't matter how many more nails get driven in at this point. (so hard to bring myself around sometimes!! The M is dead. This is just a new way that H is reinforcing his separateness, he doesn't even live here, so this is more of the same behavior. Stop being surprised at what he will do. ugh)

Still hurts that he's such a dingle hopper, but these are his choices and I'm doing my best with the painful part of all this. Not as bad as it was previously when it would give me sad stomach and I couldn't eat for days, so I'm thankful for that.

Focusing on the kids getting here next week!! I'm flying up and driving back down with them. I'm so excited I could burst.