Can I Save My Marriage Alone?

[CanBird]

Feeling a bit better now that I've had an ugly cry (the messy kind, when snot is running down your face).

We all need to cry from time to time.

This ugly "challenge" that I have no control over (H in MLC) has made me cry, just like I did with my mother's loss. But I don't want to cry about H. I know I can be strong. New fuel was added to the fire in the most unexpected way. Of course I'm going to react. I did my ugly crying when d3 was asleep. I try my best to always be positive in front of her. Sometimes she notices I'm not okay & hugs me. I just tell her I had a moment & I'll be okay.

The new fuel to the fire: more notifications of H online purchases. The last two items: women's footwear (converse & flip-flops BOTH are name brands that H loves). These are just a few of the things he's purchased. The rest are men's items (shorts, underwear, linen shirt & linen pants & another set of pants). Nothing got delivered here.

So, that is what I was crying about. Well, the not knowing. I'm praying that these items actually get delivered here. I can't waste my time trying to figure out "The Case of the Amazon Orders". It is what it is.