IH I hear how much you are struggling. I have had many days like that too. You need to get on antidepressants. They have really helped me out. They don’t work right away, it takes about a week or 2 but once they kick in you will feel different. Like Steve said, those emotions can become actions and we don’t want that.
I want you to think about something. If someone asked you 5 years ago where would you be today, would you think it would be this? Probably not!! I know this is hard because I feel your exact pain of hopelessness and feeling alone. But who’s to say 5 years from now you will be in the most amazing relationship with another woman. And you are looking back saying, “man I can’t believe I was so upset over my ex when I have this new amazing woman!!” The point is this doesn’t have to mean the end of love and good times. They can happen again. When you don’t feel like moving get up and go for a walk, when you don’t feel like eating, go out and eat your favorite food. And when you are feeling really down call someone or come on here to vent. We get it, we understand!!! Hugs
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