Gordie 24 still married

[Gordie]

SBJ Neffer Gerda

Thanks for checking in on me.

As SBJ says I am making the best of my situation.

I accept that she is still baking and that she is still figuring out who she is and what makes her happy. I accept that much of that work is hers to do and I give her time and space. At this stage of her life she is primarily focused on herself. I accept that and keep my expectations low because when they go up I get disappointed.

Something really great happened in my life, a real life accomplishment. I wished she could have been happy for me and celebrated it, but she is just not in a place to do that. It is what it is. So I am celebrating myself and my friends and children are all really happy for me.

W and I are going on a vacation together just the two of us later this summer. We have done some weekends together but this will be a longer trip. I find these alone times together are helping in our reconnection. The truth is we still have our issues to work through. And there is no substitute for time.

Mentally, I have moved from a place where I was anxious at the thought of this all falling apart at any minute to a place where I believe we will make it but with the sober thought that nothing is guaranteed in life. So I am going to continue living my best life. W is always welcome on my magic journey ride but I accept that she often wants to be by herself.

Peace be to all of you.