Last night I realized just how miserable I am, that I am not myself anymore, and haven't been for 10 months. I am miserable around the person I call my W in my own home. We don't talk, and we don't have any desire to. Sometimes I start to imagine a single independent life of being on my own, and as painful as that is, it looks more appealing than dragging things out like this. Occaisionally I get a glimpse of my old self when I go out at GAL, or put some tunes on the jukebox that I love, or hangout alone with S1. Just more growing pains I guess? But? All of this is strengthing my character, and definately growing me as a single father. My W keeps wanting to "play family" as a good co parent by inviting me to select occaision, but I'm just not having it. I've tried going out for ice cream, and the drive inn over the last 10 months, and the experience isn't that great because she wants out, but wants to remain co-parents and "friends" I just think the whole thing is stupid. Friends don't divide and split assets, and take quasi legal action against one another IMO. With friends like that? Who needs enemies? But it is a reality that these things do need to be address and dealt with in a non vindictive manner. Sorry to blow up your thread, hope this relates.
