Steps toward what?

Halfway through the internship and no idea about long term.

Feel like I am wearing out my welcome with my kids. Trying to remain upbeat but they know.

Middle kid asking long term.

I don't want this D. Never have, still don't even after the orders and everything.

God, I need your help.

H (me) 56 ; W 54 ; M 32 ; D 32 ; D 30 ; S 21 ; Grandkids: 12, 11, 10, 8, 1