Yes, I screwed up. I was oblivious to what was happening. No, not entirely. Mom went to church and Dad didn't and that was part of my normal.
So my not going and her going was okay to me but not her. Now that I am going she resents it. Not going for her. Not to spite her. I am happier going than not.
So the realtors summary for the house was less than ideal. Surprising to both of us I'm pretty sure. Her more so. Apparently she had big plans. Get a condo...
Would I want to reconcile? For economic reasons only? No...
It would have to be the whole thing, Marriage 2.0 or better. Maybe 3.0 because 2.0 was this current situation.
I do know that my kids, extended family and friends might have me committed if we were to try.
I am not done growing. Not sure she is. Lots of hurt, pain for and by both of us.
Still going to pray for her. For me. For all of you here too.
Thinking about it... yeah... another step.
Went to the gym tonight as well. Miss her so.
H (me) 56 ; W 54 ; M 32 ; D 32 ; D 30 ; S 21 ; Grandkids: 12, 11, 10, 8, 1
