Making the best of the mess.

[97Hope]

Hi Dilly!! I really want to stay here for my S17 but he doesn't ever want to live with his dad again. No matter what. Ugh. He shared that with me last night.

Ideally, I'd stay here for one more year so he can graduate. He's my youngest, so after that I can be flexible.

The house we went to was a total bomb. lol S17 said it would be fine and I said, you know, Tom Petty said it best - we do not have to live like refugees!! We will be great, but not in that place.

Deja, that's exactly how I'm looking at this! An adventure and opportunity to have the R I've always wanted. It is NOT with my H right now that's for darn sure!! After last week, I need to stop dating him. Nothing happened, we just had a nice convo with Blu.

In the meantime, I'm working on just not being here when he comes over and I'm going to have to have the conversation about him not just showing up and limiting his time here. It will have to be soon as he's planning on moving into a rental 2 miles away.

Question for everyone: Am I reacting to his actions? That's what I don't want to do. I feel like I take 2 steps forward - 1 back in this area. I'd love to get to a place where I'm not reacting to what he does/doesn't do, and this feels like he's holding all the cards. I don't like it. Makes me feel pinched.