So so new to this :(

[Nyla79]

DnJ, this is what I had written:

I’m back home now have been here for three days. It has felt both good and bad. Now that I’m back in our home, my husband is taking up all the space in my brain. I think about him and the OW constantly. I don’t know why, I almost feel like I’ve gone back a few steps again.

I think it might be the meeting on Sunday when he told me (when we talked about work) that he doesn’t know what he wants anymore, that maybe I should have tried to get him to talk more, maybe he meant that he’s unhappy about this situation, maybe he regrets leaving, maybe this, maybe that. It’s driving me crazy.

And at the same time, I’m so angry with him. I’m angry that he just packed up and left and angry that he’s hurting the kids and angry that he broke his vows and all his promises. How do I get past this again, and why does this feeling come back?

And when I came here to post it and read your reply again, it did give me strength. I hope to get to the point where that feeling will become permanent, this is getting too tiresome.