LH I don’t think I am being selfish when I am thinking of the entire family. I want to stay together as a family. It just for me. Maybe it seemed that way but I am looking at it from a family perspective. The other thing is I want her to come back because she loves me. Not because I asked her to. I want her to be happy. And I know for a long time she was very happy. Obviously recently she wasn’t. I didn’t know this but considering the path we are heading down. She probably has felt like this for a while. Honestly I don’t know why I am afraid to let go. Maybe it’s because we have been together for 19 years, or the house I did so much work on to make it our own, or all the things I got for her because I loved and and was showing her affection that way. Overall, love is blind and I am starting to see that more and more that she was not a nice person. I believe I will find someone better, she was becoming a nightmare towards the end of our marriage.
IH we share a lot of the same emotions. I guess I took my vows seriously and was willing to work through anything. Unfortunately her spoiled upbringing has a lot to do with the demise of our m. She never matured or grew up and because of that, when adult responsibility kicked in she was not prepared to handle that. So the more she thought her life was horrible. To her reverting back to thinking she was 21.
M:42 XW:41 T:19 M: 15 D:13 S:10 BD: 8/10/18 Moved out: 8/18 Moved in: 9/18/18 Moved out: 4/22/19 D papers signed 11/4/19 D final 3/18/20