Well lets see. There has been a lot that happened and a mind shift for me (at least right now).
Both lawyers are willing to quit. At this point I feel like firing mine anyway so not sure that is a loss. The court order makes no sense if we are to sell the house. No contact for a year. Someone has a serious disconnect. I don't know who and not sure I care. Want to wash my hands of the whole thing.
I was able to go to the house on Saturday, June 29. Happened to be our son's 22nd birthday. Ended up moving more than I expected. All stuff that was removed is mine by inheritance from parents. Kitchen table and chairs, a hutch, several CD cases, some kitchen ware and two rocking chairs. Pretty sure the table being gone was a shock. Don't care.
I can't go home without one of our kids. A situation that they never were asked to do and resent very much. Detailed above. Near the end of the time we were there W called and was actually screaming at our son... on his birthday. I have no idea what she was carrying on about but our son was telling her to stop yelling and listen. Wasn't happening.
Realtor went to the house on Tuesday and the price range they are talking about is well below the price she was expecting. Below what I expected.. We will be lucky to cover the mortgage, never mind the second or any other bills. Not even interested in a "told you so".
Tomorrow would be our 32nd. As I right this I am not dreading tomorrow like I was earlier today and even yesterday.
If I can't talk to her or contact at all then I will keep working on me. She can go and keep going. I never wanted this and really have wanted to get the happily ever after. Not so much anymore.
No indication of any change in her mindset. She will be expelled from church. She knows this and still wants to proceed. I don't wish that for her. I pray she relents. More for her than to save us.
I know I have a lot to regret and to work on still. She does as well. My work continues at the gym and at church. This coming Wednesday I have an appointment with a therapist to work on my issues. My phone coach is great but there are issues beyond the scope of the program. Refer to my post about my visit to spa le' psych. I still have been checking that door and yes the brick wall is still there.
I want to serve God. There are many long days ahead of me. I am grateful for my children and grandchildren. All three of the kids are here this weekend and the middle granddaughter is along with the grandsons.
W had a garage sale today. No idea what was on sale. couldn't go and see because the kids are done.
Time to make some requests of my own.
Again I hope all of you have a good day.
H (me) 56 ; W 54 ; M 32 ; D 32 ; D 30 ; S 21 ; Grandkids: 12, 11, 10, 8, 1
