Story and Symptoms of WAW/MLC Part 4

[joejoe1]

IHC,

Let's start over. You are back at square one. You are so tied up with what your W is doing, you aren't working on your healing. Trust me/us who have been here a while, your W can sense when you have sincerely dropped the rope and started moving forward with your life. You are too preoccupied with everything she is doing.

Looking at her mirrors and what's on her bed, the time she left and returned, what's in her hands when she returns. You are also, stocking her, knowing that she was in the driveway for 20 mins playing on her phone. That's too much brother. I've been there, and it's exhausting. You can't control her or her choices and whatever outcomes are coming her way, but you can control yourself in a way to help possibly reshape some of her choices and outcomes bringing her back (possibly).

And GOD usually gives us what we ask for, not what we want. IMO. If you asked GOD to stop the pain. And the source of your pain is your W. Then maybe the way to reduce that pain is to start and distance the source. He also gives us signs and clues and if you are so wrapped up in what she is doing, you are most likely missing those signs.

It's time to start building your railroad track in your direction and take your train off of your W's tracks.

I see it this way, stop working so hard to prevent a boat with thousands of holes already in from sinking, instead, just start working on building a new one. You need to let go, mourn and grieve that old M, then accept it won't be coming back.

Onward and upward