Well this week HAS been dilly week Yorkie, other than the making sure he was still alive bit on Monday. I feel so angry with him for doing that, I've kept it in my head as evidence of him being completely unreasonable and hypocritical. I've barely thought about H actually, I've had a lot on and have been enjoying the great weather and squeezing my work in. Last night I had a race and it was tough as anything, really hilly and technical. I ran almost all the way up most of the hills, and during and afterwards I felt SO proud of myself for being so strong. I was literally congratulating myself on the way round for being a tough person. There's nothing so good for your self-esteem as overtaking much younger people than you running up a brutal hill I feel like something has shifted, I feel harder and stronger (not just because of the race, but maybe because the fact that everyone I know on here and outside is telling me how bad H is for me, and eventually it's sinking in). So watch this space I still feel lonely, I need to increase my GAL efforts further because teens are crap company when they're at home on their computers, but I have some plans on how to do that. I still haven't decided on the holiday, I don't want H to come but I could probably tolerate him for a weekend for ds2's sake if I have to, but I will be the one deciding where to go and what to do and I won't be making plans based around H. Anyway, I'd better get off, I have stacks of work to do, IC, an aerobics class, gardening and then a thing at ds2's school this evening which I'm looking forward to.
