LH I understand that was a mistake leaving my home. For me it helped with my sanity. I guess I had to choose between DB and my own sanity. Leaving the home was not right for DB but it was right for my mental health. I guess I had to make a choice at that moment. I choose my mental health. It also helped me to detach. Being in the home with her all the time was just too hard for me to handle. Sorry, maybe I am not as mentally strong as some on here, but that is just how I am. You know what LH, maybe, just maybe this will be better for me long term. Just like she only focused on the negative I only focused on the positive. And I have been doing a lot of thinking and soul searching and there were many things I was not happy with in my marriage. Since I have started to let go of the past I feel more free and ready for my future. I will say I am not 100% ready I still have my moments of depression. If they are getting less and less. My GAL has helped me with that. LH I will say I have learned a lot from this, even though you think I haven’t I have!!
Better thank you for the hugs, I needed that!!
R2C I am trying harder to get up early to go to the gym. I went to DD the other day and had a coffee by myself which I wouldn’t have done a few months ago. I played baseball last night and picked 6 innings. Took my kids to a colleagues house for the day and had a great time!!! So I am certainly trying little by little. I am trying to live in the moment. It’s hard but I am getting there.
M:42 XW:41 T:19 M: 15 D:13 S:10 BD: 8/10/18 Moved out: 8/18 Moved in: 9/18/18 Moved out: 4/22/19 D papers signed 11/4/19 D final 3/18/20
