YES! Hold onto that, hope! You will waver, your H might come crawling back offering you crumbs and you might weaken and think about taking him back. But you definitely do deserve so much better than this pancake-making cheater. I identify with the loneliness, I was lonely when H lived here, because he spent years working longer and longer hours and giving his family less time and attention and love and retreating from us. It was lonely and I was lonely. And now we are confronted with being properly alone it brings attention to our loneliness, but it was there all along because our Hs were not meeting our needs. Good men are out there. Not perfect men, but good enough men. Right now our Hs are not good enough for us. There's a possibility if they put in the hard work that that could change, but we have to drop the rope and live our lives as if they won't. You are an amazing mum, a strong woman, and a good person. You're right, your H does not deserve your love xx
