This is why you are where you’re at right now because it’s pathetic. It’s beta male behavior and a big turn off to a woman. Google hypergamy
If you don’t put on your big boy pants and start to understand that pursuing a woman who is rejecting you is demeaning and emasculating you are going to suffer severely my friend.
D, what LH says is important for you to understand. One of the common things you hear here is winning back the respect of your W and your attitude won't help. Whether she comes back to you or not, you will at least have your own dignity when you look back at this years later.
I watched a movie recently where a guy catches his wife sleeping with another man. He gets angry and starts yelling and complaining to her about her betrayal when he has been a good husband. The wife is the one who cheated and the guy looked like a normal confident person in other scenes in the movie. But he looked pathetic getting emotional and angry at his wife. Was it justified? Yes. But did he look pathetic? A resounding yes. Seeing that brought a lot of perspective on this