Thank you everyone, I appreciate it. I think he felt a bit guilty (and yes Alison maybe a bit embarrassed at me dragging his friends in) but I don't feel like it was the wrong thing to do. My friend who I rang last night came over this morning to do some gardening with me and she told me that 5 years ago her friend rang to say that her H had killed himself, it was devastating for everyone, so I think I gave her a bit of a flashback. But I don't think I over-reacted, H's behaviour was worrying and it was selfish, but I guess I should be used to the latter. Interesting take on it being punishment Alison.
Right now I don't care. I'm heartily glad he's alive and not dead in a car crash or of an overdose or drowned in his own vomit, but weirdly I don't care what he's up to, I'm leaving him be and doing me. I'm actually having a lovely day and I will get an early night.
