Dillydaff, part 6

[LB55]

Those triggers are really tough to deal with! I still feel like I have PTSD some days when I go pick up the kids. I’m just scared for her to look at me, tempt me, or otherwise be nice to me because she will use it later to hit me in the junk with a club and bring me back to my knees.

Every time I drive by the gas station where I got off the airport shuttle expecting to see my family and got served restraints and divorce papers I get anxious. I had to ride the airport shuttle for a trip I took for work 2 months ago. I felt like I was in a panic! I am not an easily flappable person and I don’t panic. But riding in a van to the airport was super stressful!

So abig hug from me; I totally get it Dilly. (Autocorrect wants your name to be Silly really badly!!)

Stay strong. I’m strong enough right now I could say no to sex with W. That was unthinkable even a month ago. It’s ok to want it, I want it to very single day! We were very active in the bedroom, 5-7 times a week; I miss that physical intimacy desperately. But right now it’s not worth the emotional distress.

Thanks for reading up on my situation and commenting. This is the hardest thing any of us have had to deal with; I’m glad we are all here to help each other. What did we do before the internet???