Making the best of the mess.

[97Hope]

Dilly it's a switch for me - I am an eternal optimist. The optimism I reserve for myself - I can control. But him, well, my name says it all - I hope we are able to have a R in the future, but I'm not waiting for it or setting my anchor to it.

Just spent 2 days with him working on these down trees. I'm feeling like it was too much time right now. He just left and I am glad he's not coming back. Being around him as things are I prefer to take in small doses. I realized while he was out of town that I was way more calm.

So I'm still working on regulating around him. Not as detached as I need/would like to be.