I think this because I really have no desire for another marriage or any type of a relationship at all. I know that's not really a bad thing, but I've seen others on this board move on to a new relationship and even a second or third new relationship. Me? I want no part of it.
But the other reason and I know this isn't healthy....
I find myself worrying a lot. You see, I have a brand new grand baby that I absolutely adore. He was born on June 17th. S24 and "baby mama" are not married, but they say that they plan to get married "someday."
I fear and am absolutely terrified that something will happen between them I will not get to see the baby. (She has a six-year old from a previous relationship.) Maybe they'll break up before getting married and she'll vanish or maybe they will get married, but divorce and she'll vanish and I won't get to see the baby.
I'm afraid to get close to him. I'm tired of having my heart broken.
Again, I know this isn't healthy at all and I can't go through life like this, but it is something that I can't help.
Just wanted to tell someone.
Tad
Currently: M 57 XW 58 Sons 39,34,32,30
The Sitch: Married 26 years EA w/ OM 9/10 Bomb 10/10 (5 weeks after 25th anniversary) Sep 12/10 She wants D 1/11 W files 5/11 D final 10/11 XW marries OM 6/13
