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[botanygirl]

He will announce he is done and in many ways he is completely checked out when it comes to our relationship but he won’t physically leave because of our children and I suspect for financial reasons. We actually had a descent week this past week. No arguing or major blow-ups but just now another argument that to me seemed from out of no where. Well not out of no where. I somehow lost my house key this week. It must have fallen off of my key chain-which I have no idea how that happened-but tonight I couldn’t unlock the front door because of not having a key so he was making fun of me and said something about locking me out of the house-and I had put up with that the whole evening of just being made fun of. He behaves as though he is being funny and just having a laugh but I see it as being cruel and he never has anything nice to say to me. If I address the behaviour I am being “grumpy”. So I kind of pushed back by going in through the garage and pushing the door closed in his face-he pushed back physically on the door and I went sailing. Our kids are with us and witnessing all of this. I just ignored it and laughed it off and then he keeps calling me grumpy so I say to him-I am not grumpy just tired of him never being nice to me and constantly making fun of me. Well this was the wrong thing to say. He started yelling at me about how irresponsible I am for losing a key and then not replacing it right away. And then tells me to [censored] off and stop being a cry baby. So I just walked away and put our son to bed.

I know I don’t deserve this and I know he is being abusive. I keep hoping he will change but it won’t. I just don’t know what to do.