Actually, I do not recall what even tipped me off -- perhaps an intuition as I read your posts and the CA in your name -- but I was indeed correct :-)

I am sorry you are struggling. I also wear my heart on my sleeve and "acting" detached around my H after BD felt impossible most days. Perhaps the best thing for you now is limiting your arrangements so you don't have to cross paths. Can you make it so you only see him when you absolutely have to? Your D3 will adjust. Can you only communicate in email? I think both of those things will help start your healing process. The less you have to see him or hear from him the better.

You might feel worse before you start feeling better. This is really hard news to accept. Just allow your feelings and process them. Continue the self care and GAL. Give yourself permission to also have fun and enjoy moments. It helps. I promise in time things will get improve.

Blu

Last edited by BluWave; 06/27/19 06:53 PM.
“Forgiveness liberates the soul. It removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon.” – Nelson Mandela