You sound like you are doing really well and have a lot of things to keep you busy. Really practicing your PMA too which is so tough to do consistently. My only caution would be to be careful that your H isn't doing a lot of cake eating as it won't motivate him to make any changes or decisions. However, I do completely understand the lure and appeal of being with your "old" H when he makes an appearance. Just make sure you keep your expectations at zero. (((HUGS)))