so yesterday I got "i'm busy, but i wanted you to know i've been thinking about you" and then several other questions about how the new house is coming. i answered her back as i normally would, but there was no us talk. she didn't ask and i know better than to bring it up.
at this point that old urge to do something is there, but i know better than to pursue. she is aware of how i clearly feel, it is she who has the questions. i will answer her as she contacts me, but i'm giving her the time and space to sort herself out. she will either get through this or we'll be done. it's out of my control. i'm not going to come off needy and push her away. i know my value, she seemingly knows my value and so the ball is fully in her court.
relationships are tiring. i'm tired of the fact that every lady i've come in contact with has been completely unable to find a work life balance. my WW couldn't do it married, miss sunshine was single, no kids and couldn't do it and now current lady single mom can't either. at times i think God keeps taking me back to "dude you would be so much better off without women" but i keep believing one out there somewhere could work.
