Blu— This is going to sound weird, but this last exchange we had was an actual, cosmic/spiritual/psychic/very powerful thing. After I read what you wrote I experienced almost a film reel in fast forward through my head. I thought about what you said about the anger and resentment we LBS would feel if we accepted that our H was probably having an affair. Well, as it happens, the girl I thought was a fling my H had after he moved out, he’s been dating her for the last 10 months. I had to know, so I broke the rules and pressed a bit and now I know. I’m nearly shattered. But not quite. I was meant to have this information now. It’s what I needed. In some way you directed me to it and despite the immense pain I’m in right now, I’m truly grateful for it. It scares me to realize that I could allow myself to be in such denial. It blows my mind. All this time. All this time. All I want is the strength to drop this rope. I deserve so much better than this. I’ve been a fool, but I will not beat myself up for it. I just need to use it to drop. This. Rope. If you have anything more for me Blu, I’ll take anything. Thank you for guiding me to where I needed to be.
