The less empowering result of this path of thinking is that I’m realizing I’ve been completely blocking out the possibility/reality that he very well may be seeing someone now. Now that I’m allowing those thoughts in I realize that I am not detached at all because I feel that old heart broken feeling I haven’t felt ( or let myself face reality enough to feel) in a long time. That thought sickens me and it breaks my heart all over again. I know I need to use this pain to fuel my resolve to detach, like Blu said. I wish I knew just how to do that.
