Thank you. I have been moving forward, trying to keep my integrity.
I've been doing ok.
Thing is...I expected this. And not just because of the DB books...but because I *seriously* suspect that she has BPD. When W left, she went nuts. A friend told me just today that when we were together, she would say "If I wasn't married I'd be down to sleep with pretty much anyone."
That stuff? It matches the BPD diagnostic criteria. So does the way she devalued/discarded, and now attempts to hoover me back in.
Funny thing is, the DB books have been really, really great at helping navigate this...as have BPD forums, narcissistic abuse survivors groups, etc.
It's like they're all playing the same exact game, except that some of them just have this as a temporary form of crazy, while others are more permanently broken.
It's amazing how similar a WW and a BPD are. Heh. The main difference I've found in the advice is that one is geared towards being okay with or without them coming back, and the other is geared towards being okay without them.
It feels like these are more than "temp checks". Some of this stuff is outright abuse.
But we keep going forward. Maybe she'll be able to overcome her stuff. If not...I tried.
