Thank you Hope. I guess I am still very sensitive to perceived criticism - or the thought that I am expected to please someone else with decisions that have nothing to do with them. That's a hangover from my marriage and may be me bringing in old rubbish to new interactions, so I will have to watch for that knowing I need to grow in that area.
Nothing much new to report here. I have been very focussed on work and the kids, with time to GAL in the evenings and during this weekend. I'm having a nice time. I feel happy most of the time. Now and again - when I have a busy evening or Youngest is being difficult - I feel resentful towards H. Mainly because I want to dump some of the relentless grunt-work of parenting onto his lap, rather than have him dump it all onto mine. But those feelings are fleeting and I don't act on them.
He has been extremely cordial and almost eager to please in our last interaction. I'm pleased he's being polite - it is much better for Youngest to have that experience when she goes to see her father instead of him being sulky or sullen or argumentative. But the door is closed very firmly.
