Married couple from Scandinavia

[BenB]

Thank you DnJ,

For us, Paris is only a 2 hour flight and quite cheap

You are absolutely right. I took a while to get to where I am today. It will take time for me to get to a better place as well.

So this is what happened in Paris -

We had several dinners and lunches booked. The only thing I perhaps regret is that there was too much good wine so we were both quite intoxicated. So I don´t remember everything as clearly as I would have liked. We had R talks Friday evening during dinner and Saturday lunch, I´m not sure who initiated them but I think it was her.

Here´s what I do remember. She said that she doesn´t feel like she felt last month and the previous months before that. She said she is very happy we didn´t make hasty decisions and she is very happy she didn´t move out like she suggested a while ago. We spoke for a while and I don´t remember what I said that made her answer "I think that´s unnecessary to talk about because I don´t see us breaking up anymore. At least that´s how I feel".

I didn´t agree with her nor did a disagree. I think I basically just nodded my head when she said this. After the Saturday lunch I felt like it´s enough of R talks so I avoided it and only talked about light subjects. A few times as we were walking around the city, she held my hand, like before all this happened. I pretended like I wasn´t affected by it but it felt so good. I realized how much I have missed touching her. We weren´t intimate with each other during the trip and I didn´t expect us to be either, especially not since she just got her period the day before we arrived. When we got to the park by the Eiffel tower she took several pictures and then wanted to take a selfie with us. She used to do this all the time when we traveled but this was the first times since all this started she´s wanted to take one. She hasn´t posted the selfie online though.

Other than that, things were great. We laughed, made inside jokes so the entire restaurant was looking at us on pretty much every lunch and dinner. Another older couple were looking at us, smiling and raising their glasses of wine. She talked several times about other places we should go to.

I know this all sounds great, but I am terrified. I am so afraid to let my guard down and get hurt. But I am also so thankful for everyone at this forum. To think I was seconds away from ending this relationship and you guys talked me out of it.

On Thursday we have our next MC session and on Friday her parents are coming to visit. I´ll let you know how things go then.