Persistent Endurance (Part 4)

[curtis7]

Hi Sandi et al, thanks for thinking of me and checking in.

I’m still here. I spent the early part of June planning my California vacation with my kids and I’m just back from the 10 day trip. It was absolutely amazing!! Being with them everyday is something I haven’t had since WW moved out almost 3 months ago. Would have been great if W was with us on the trip, but the bonding experience and memories are irreplaceable and something she can’t take away from me.

I’ve been giving WW time and space as AS recommended. The cake eating continues with her horse. We mostly communicate about the kids and some small talk about her job, renovation projects she’s working on at the separation house, horses, etc. She is always nice and cordial and I reciprocate in kind. She has not brought up D. Nor has she inquired further about request for financial info or dividing assets/property per the deadline she imposed by the end of May. So from that standpoint DBing has been successful.

However, W is WW as ever with her multiple A partners. She is now cycling between OM1 (EA/possible PA co-worker), OM2 (PA 25 year old pickup artist), and OM3 (PA dirtbag that verbally abuses her based on texts I’ve seen) all within the span of a couple weeks. These sexual predators are attacking on all fronts and her vulnerability/desires can’t fight them off. Full blown GGW with divorced BFF by her side to support and promote her new lifestyle. She fails to see the harm that her choices will cause to our children. Selfishness, it’s all about her. I’m afraid I’ve reached the end of my timeline in limbo. I want off this roller coaster.

I’ll post an update in the next day or two on my thoughts and plans going forward. I would really appreciate advice from the vets on the best course of action for the options that I’ll lay out. I’m still willing to R, only if the A’s end. It’s time for me to make a final stand. She may or may not feel a crisis, but it will be her choice to make. My expectations are near zero and I’m willing to try almost anything. I am ready to move on one way or another, with or without her, protect my emotional well-being and put all of my energy into living a life that is best for me and my children.