You are right. Writing and talking about it is getting you nowhere. That's why I'm picky about my IC sessions. I have friends to talk to that are free (I just have to rotate them so I don't overwhelm them!)
Action is what is required, and you are now fully able to stop enabling, supporting, or 'being there' for him. Right now you have it in you. It just takes you believing that GAL/GD is good for you and has nothing to do with H. Not doing it to bring him around, or back. Just doing it because YOU need too.
You sound as is you are realizing more and more about yourself. That's growth and it's great! Don't stall out now!!
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ME47 XH44, S28 S24 S19
8/17-BD IHS: 1/17-2/19 D FILED (ME): 7/19 D FINAL: 10/20 M23 T25 OW CONFIRMED: 01/21
Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.