thanks everyone. I've had a few days away from thinking about things but today I have big time separation anxiety. Ugh. Had a few tears and now I need to change the scenery a bit, go do some work in a different place. I want to finish this work by tonight so I have to focus really hard for a long time today. IC session on Thursday where we discussed pretty much what you said, Hope. More tears there. Getting from knowing 'I cannot let him treat me this way' to actually working out how to accomplish this is HARD. Not sure my IC was that much help here actually, other than he pretty much got mad on my behalf at my not demanding I get my needs met! I must be so frustrating to work with but honestly, sometimes I feel like just talking or writing about this doesn't help and I end up going round in circles. I need action, or to change my thinking somehow. Really not sure how to do that. I'm too busy for GAL at the moment, and sitting about being stressed about working just encourages rumination. I keep thinking about how I could have handled last Sunday and H's appalling mood better. He's scary though and I just retreat. My habit is to either hide or to fight, and neither of those are assertive or useful. That said, last week was pretty good. This too shall pass, right?
