You are doing great, Solo!! Keep that momentum going. Each time you see them throw the toys out of the pram, it does get better (for you). You learn to distance more each time. They hate it when we don't react/respond the way they want.
I'm corny, so bear with me, but I sing that song in my head when H goes off.."ain't nothing gonna break-a my stride, I'm running and i won't stop now-ow, oh-NO, I got ta keep on moooovin"
Whatever works for you. You will get so good at detachment you will me a rock that no one can tell how to feel.
I'm reading and getting inspired. I'm in the same boat, going dark. It's hard, but gets easier!!
ME47 XH44, S28 S24 S19
8/17-BD IHS: 1/17-2/19 D FILED (ME): 7/19 D FINAL: 10/20 M23 T25 OW CONFIRMED: 01/21
Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.