Thank you Gerda for sharing your perspective. It has brought some clarity.
Originally Posted by Gerda
I would also caution you against allowing your H to rewrite history so much that you start questioning your entire past with him. I am sure he was deeply flawed, my H was too, and there were seeds of this, of course. But you don't have to doubt your entire life with him either.
I went through a period where I did this regularly. Convinced that our whole M was a farce. But recently, I've had strong images of H and I being great companions. We were in a lot of ways throughout the years. I wouldn't want to go back to our old pattern, but after 28 years of marriage, and at our age, that easy companionship was what I was looking forward to. I still believe we can have it, which surprises me. Maybe God is speaking to me. I'm trying to be quiet and listen. I even put on my wedding rings today for a while. I have no idea why it occurred to me to do so after having them off for over 2 months. Maybe it was my thoughts of something good in my M. Your reminder of Philippians 4:8 is quite timely!
Today I took comfort in Matthew 11:28-30.
"28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
It was mentioned in today's sermon, which I watched on-line since I'm home sick. I love how these things pop up at the most needed times!
