Making the best of the mess.

[97Hope]

Journaling,
Well...apparently he's making chocolate chip pancakes for someone.

I don't have proof of who it is. Not sure I want to know at this point. After 2 years of DBing, today I'm ready to go to L and go ahead and file myself.

We have been through affairs in the past. That was something I would not do again.

I'll see how I'm feeling tomorrow. Right now, it's not even surprising. Disappointing for sure. So glad for these past few weeks of feeling more confident.

If you pray, please pray for me. Wisdom. Right now I"m staying dark, so there is time to figure out if/when confrontation happens.

A part of me just wants to file and not say anything until his L calls him and lets him know (they don't serve anymore)...and when he asks just say something along the lines of "chocolate chip pancakes" lol.
Honestly, I would have stood for this marriage while he's on his 'journey' but given our past, and where I am, that can not include another woman.

I'll see how I feel about it later. Going to go ahead and buy that lipstick just now.