Welp prepare the 2x4s lol. So the trips over, I’m home now. Lots of developments last night.
So in the evening W asked me to get a drink with her and go on some rides. 2x4 incoming I know I should have declined but idk I felt like it. So we go get some drinks and pretty quick she dives into R talk. Another 2x4 I know I should shut these R talks down but when I have alcohol in me my DBing goes out the window lol. Anyway she dives back into who are you dating, is it serious, is it one person or multiple people yada yada. It was a long talk and at one point she said “well if it’s serious then we should just divorce”. Idk if she is making things up or not but according to her, her texting me pictures of our son and asking me to stop by her classroom when I pick son up are her ways of trying to reconnect with me. She made a point that I wasn’t even trying due to my brief replies and such. I know that is the DB way but maybe I need to try being less brief with her?
So yeah I didn’t give her a straight up answer about my personal life and I reinforced it wasn’t her business any longer. We ended up leaving and then going souvenir shopping which was weird because after such a serious R talk the mood went back to playful and there was a lot of flirting. We have a really great banter I would call it and it was just like old times oddly enough.
We went on some rides and W was showed a lot of pursuit. We held hands multiple times which hasn’t happened since god knows when. Hit me with those 2x4s I’m ready lol. After some rides we decided to go get another drink. Once again W dove into R talk. This time it was all about my failures and such in the relationship. At one point she said “it was a lot of little things”. To which I replied “I don’t think it’s right to leave someone over little things”. I really hope this next part was just her seeing the whole R as negative because if it was reality I would feel terrible: she said that over the 8 odd years we were together she never felt loved. She felt that I always just settled for her because she was there and it was convenient. This hurt me a lot because that wasn’t my intention at all but currently that’s her perception of our whole R which s*cks..
After R talk we started heading back to our hotel (separate rooms). We went out the wrong entrance and ended up like a 30 minute walk from our hotel lol. We joked and flirted the whole way back. More hand holding and piggy backing. I know I know force feeding her cake and what not. We got back to the hotel and I asked if she wanted to come to my room for a few. She agreed. We had s*x for the first time in probably 4 months.
This morning she told me “nothing happened” in regards to us having s*x. A bit more flirting on the trip home. Pretty pleasant for the most part. She also mentioned that I shouldn’t get any ideas about what happened. She’s playing it off like she didn’t want to do that but it’s pretty clear with all the flirting and jealousy over my possible girlfriend that she was pursuing me.
Our interactions were ok. I tried to make it clear that I’m not a back up plan and that I’m moving on with my life. I think this is why she started pursuing so hard. Not really sure where to go from here but if she was being truthful then maybe I need to try being less brief with her? Ok ready for the 2x4s.
