Making the best of the mess.

[97Hope]

I love that "very restrained of you", made me chuckle. I said something like, "Good news! Onward and upward!" and he said he still drinks too much. Our son was in the car when he was taking about it, so I tried to keep it light, but jeez. To brag about not keeping a cooler in the back and not drinking at work really shed a light on how out there he is.

I mostly have PMA. Leaving that job helped. It was good to have boundaries and I think it was an exercise in knowing my limits and exercising them. With H you know how hard that is! But things have progressed to a point where I know deep down that if this doesn't work out, I am probably better off. Still a little scary, but hopeful for a better future.

Next stop, not taking any more garbage from H. Haven't texted/called him and honestly don't want to. I want to tell all the newcomers that you WILL not obsess over this if you focus on yourself and redirect your thoughts. I don't think about him until I come on here or something reminds me, but then I limit my time to thinking on that and switch to what's good for me. Today that is going through my clothes and doing a clear out so I can make room for new beginnings.