I think sometimes you have to really let yourself properly feel the reality of the situation - without any making excuses or applying compassion and understanding - just really feeling it, as horrible as it is, before you can process it, accept it and then take appropriate action.
Dilly - I am sure you do have people in your life who find you special enough to look after. And it is a sad fact that for reasons to do with him, and not to do with you, your husband isn't one of them. He does not want to care for you, look after you, be close to you or even be truthful with you. It's a very very hard fact to accept because it hurts like nothing else.
