yeah those are some of my main concerns too Alison
Well so much for my IC plans. I went for a run with a friend and she fainted and there was a big fuss and I ended up only just making it to IC after sorting her out. Then I had a total meltdown with him because her H came home to look after her and I thought that I don't have anyone who finds me special enough to look after so I ended up sobbing about that for quite a long time. The truth of being alone just keeps hitting you doesn't it? Then I had to unburden myself over my other friend's devastating secret so had a little cry about that too. And then I went round in circles saying I was really struggling with the uncertainty of everything right now.
So yeah, not the best morning! I had a nice lunch with my son though, and now I'm finally getting down to some work. Tough focusing lately but today has been a doozy.
Awww really sorry Dilly! But sometimes crying and venting can be therapeutic so maybe you'll feel better now! If things don't work out with H there's someone else out there for you, probably someone better. So try to keep that in mind, the loneliness is temporary. After BD I had a lot of those thoughts too, could not imagine taking care of myself when sick because W always did. But I've been sick plenty of times since D and have managed just fine. A lot of the things we fear end up not being a big deal after all. I'm alone a lot but I'm hardly ever lonely because I keep myself quite busy. You'll get there too!
