Thanks for reading the posts Flysolo and offering your female perspective.
I agree on all your points of what contributes to the unhappiness of our spouse. Trust me I spent a lot of time pointing light on all aspects of me and what I could have fixed. IC sessions, books, this forum, talks with friends etc. At some point though it didnt add up to her decision.
How unhappy was she? We'll never know. But aren't we all at some point.
As to the moment with my boy, I do not mean to diminish his mother (which she is doing a good job, when not being weird) but the details do count. They do to me.
He will have his mother forever, but after this summer I am leaving the country. The fact that she was there and he came to me said, that mom is not enough, I need some of you too.
B.D in December 2018 Physical Affairs discovered in April 2019 Divorced May 2019 H (me) 49 W (her) 29