The thing is, I never go for chemistry. I’m so logical. I have always gone for what I saw was safe.- but I was dead wrong each and every time. I would always tell people when I was lonely or depressed with ex husband, “he’s very loyal. I know he will never cheat. And he’s very responsible”. I remember my best friend asking me before we got married “are you sure you want to do this. I think your both together because there’s no reason to break up”
It took me 4 dates to kiss ex bf because I had to wait for the chemistry to grow. And it only came when I had poured my heart out to him about my divorce. That’s really bad too. He was arrogant and rude. But I wasn’t emotionally stable and that wasn’t fair to him either. I was with him cause I felt like he was a sure thing and wouldn’t cheat or leave.
My best friend told me she thinks I need to go for someone that I really really feel for. She said I have a personality that adapts to other people and that’s good because I do not make enemies like she does, but bad because When you can be compatible with many what prevents you from settling?
I have to say I am already feeling chemistry for one of the guys. I love his pictures and how he talks to me. (Really respectful and a good communicator) neither of us have talked about our past marriages or kids. And it’s light and fun. And he makes me feel good with the compliments. I can’t wait to meet him. And I know I’m setting myself up for disappointment or maybe he won’t like me in person. Or maybe he cheated on his ex wife. . But he keeps telling me how excited he is to meet me and I feel really good about this too. It’s a different feeling. And ridiculous to have. I know that.
