Yes, maybe. I'm not sure I could bring myself to go on a dating app though. I am quite a flirtatious person naturally. When I was away this weekend I chatted to plenty of men and got plenty of attention, it was really nice. One of them I was trying to hook my friend up with because I could see she was interested. Eventually I turned to talk to our other friend so she could talk to him but she didn't end up with his number. Afterwards I was telling her off for not being more flirtatious and she said 'but he only had eyes for you' and I told her it was because I'm a loudmouth, but I am pretty confident at talking to most people. I'm going to another couple of groups on Friday, maybe I'll do a bit more flirting then I feel weird flirting when wearing my wedding ring though, and when people ask me about my family and so on. I feel weird people seeing me as single and potentially a romantic interest. I'm easy to talk to but hard to get to know I think.
Anyway, I am turning my attention more towards what I will do with my life after this work is finished at the end of the year. I'm going to a networking thing next week, that would be good if I could meet anyone there who has some contacts or ideas about how I could take my ideas forward. If not, then fine, there will be other opportunities. Some may involve moving to another area, I'm not sure how I feel about that. Ds1 is finishing school next year and ds2 is starting GCSEs and is happy at his school, he would hate to move. I would really like to move but think I will stay put till ds1 has finished, maybe put the house on the market after my work finishes and then rent for a bit nearby to give me flexibility. If I did get a job further away H could move somewhere closer to here and look after ds2...
Just saw your last bit. I've always been the avoidant one and H has been the anxious one. Now he's the avoidant one and I'm the anxious one, I read that you inevitably switch to the other end in order to get to secure attachment! But maybe H is disorganised attachment, he has so many weird things going on given his abandonment history.
I feel weird flirting when wearing my wedding ring though, and when people ask me about my family and so on. I feel weird people seeing me as single and potentially a romantic interest. I'm easy to talk to but hard to get to know I think. 