So your H left you for OW and you continue to sleep with him and have R talks?

I’m confused: have you read any of the links or posts here? Why are you okay taking another woman’s leftover scraps of YOUR H?

Do you think women with self confidence do that? Can you describe how a woman with a high self value would behave in this scenario? Maybe that’s a place to start.

I’m sort of at a loss of what to stay. I made a lot of mistakes but never for one second allowed my H to play me like this. As long as OW was in the picture in any capacity, he knew not to come anywhere near me. I deserve better. I deserve it all.

Maybe this starts with you and why you think you deserve this. You think you deserve it simply because you allow it . So sadly you are causing additional harm in your sitch. Strong and confident women would tell a guy like this to F off. Then she would flood herself with self care, support and GAL. .... this over time is also what has them ending their As and begging to come back.

Maybe start by waking up every morning and reading Sandis rules. I’m not sure actually, I don’t understand what your goals are here.

Blu

“Forgiveness liberates the soul. It removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon.” – Nelson Mandela